Element Amenities

A weird, evolving website inspired by addiction and recovery. 

Nevenka

Nevenka

Or...or..I think, what about those people in life who force themselves to stay in situations that make them unhappy for the rest of their lives. People, who do what they are told to do make other people happy, or fit into what society thinks is the way to be. White...

Blueprint

Blueprint

My beautiful, brilliant, successful sister came to visit me from the United States. We had such a great time, she took me shopping and spoiled me as usual. She bought my kids gifts, stocked my fridge, and bought linens and kitchen things for the house.  She is three...

☕🚬  Dry- Straight up

☕🚬 Dry- Straight up

Some days I want to crawl out of my skin, today is one of those days. Phffffffff. womp, womp. Maybe watching old movies will cheer me up? Or cake. (vodka, vodka, vodka) I feel like this Reliant, cruising along..take a corner too fast and bam- end up on my face. One...

Followers Only

Followers Only

  Blogging on this website started as therapy for me.  Lately, I've been feeling rather exposed… that sounds silly for someone who chose to write these and then post them online. For most of the summer, I wrote things out of pure passion. Good, evil...that's for...

Manitoba

Manitoba

So for this past week has been so amazing. It feels a little like home here. People are surprised when I tell them I have never been on a Reserve before. I have always wanted to see this so I am really happy to be able to come here and explore. I have met a medicinal...

Night Time

Night Time

Night time. The time when I think too much….inside my head some crazy, crazy stuff. Daytime I feel good, distracted, doing very fun stuff, like driving and hiking around. These days I let myself go there and replay the memory, to take away its power. After that...

Tea

Tea

Processing a lot over the past few weeks has made me realize, I have some pretty dark places. NOT hiding from it either. I have so many funny characters cheering for me in my mind. Ok, here is the story where I am going to live up to my self labeled name - dry cat...

Bits and Pieces

Bits and Pieces

I know... this is another fucking sad story, but that's the point for me. My life has actually turned around since I stopped drinking, and I’ve been thinking about how I am going to continue to stay sober. That's the only thing I am doing differently, thinking about...

Peace in the Valley

Peace in the Valley

So this feels weird blogging from my work trip, but it's fine. I have downtime and I have hours that I work. I'm disciplined about my time management. Hairdresser skill. This trip feels good for me. It's like this magical loop opened up when I sobered up. I love...

Lifer

Lifer

I have a bad habit of going back in time because it feels comfortable. The fact that I just called it a habit feels like I’m not allowing myself to feel my feelings. PTSD-I have a lot of patience for myself but sometimes, it feels very comfortable and intimate being...

Old ships on the Lake

Old ships on the Lake

I woke up this morning with the worst belly of my life - panic disorder suck. Good days and bad I guess. I did it myself. I let myself get overwhelmed and didn’t give myself time to digest. I was worrying about the future for no reason. Can’t control it so why worry...

40 mile

40 mile

I am such an empath. I'm a sucker for any costume dramas, especially BBC take-offs. It's the people stories that I love. The romance, the passion, the outfits, and ending with heartbreaking treachery or misunderstanding. It's so true, I love it. When I was a girl my...

Rail Trail

Rail Trail

I didn’t go to AA. I googled it, stalked/walked by it twice, and saw the meetings coming and going. Nope, not doing it. I still feel better every day. It sounds so weird. Enjoy it, be thankful for the things I can get done. I got up this morning on a Sunday had...

Mail and a Mercedes

Mail and a Mercedes

I really thought that when Liv left I could concentrate on getting better, and I would want to drink less... But I still want it every day, sooo yeah. Six months in and I’m not wanting it any less. I pushed my shit under the rug, to look after her, and it has been...

Carole Leslie

Carole Leslie

Well, well, well, look who appeared in her bed at 5 am this morning. Rehab is still not an option for her. I told her she has to find somewhere else to stay until she gets sober. Her dad is coming to collect her tomorrow. I don't really blame her for not wanting to...

Tidal

Tidal

Lately, I've been thinking about just being a writer… what the fuck would I write about? When I'm very transparent and honest about my struggles people get it. But this feels different. What is it that feels that way? Not sure yet. I am gonna call it the Dry Drunk....

Ontario st.

Ontario st.

Fucking amaz balls - she will go. It was not me, and I don't think it was her Dad either. I think she has figured out she put herself in a pretty precarious situation. Forced to live with your mother and sister, sucks. And she had to deal with the toxic situation she...

Dry- Cat Lady

Dry- Cat Lady

Dry Cat lady is gonna stick I think. Ever wake up in the middle of the night with gripping anxiety and cat pee on your bed? Oh just me? Awesome. Fucking melatonin, knocked me out and then make me wake up with a start. I changed my sheets, had some tea, a glass of...

LHEP

LHEP

I love the spring. I love watching it come alive. I went for a walk this morning, it was so nice to move. Lately, I’ve had a thing about leaving the house. I have a touch of agoraphobia. “Mom,  you can't just have a touch,” says Jackie thrusting her phone in my...